tempatnya burung bukan di dalam sangkar,
tempatnya burung bukan di dalam kamarmu,
tempatnya burung bukan juga di tanganmu.
tempatnya burung di atas sana,
tempatnya burung di langit biru,
tempatnya burung di alam bebas.
sangkar itu bukan rumahnya,
dunia luar itu bukan miliknya juga,
namun dunia luar itu adalah
sebaik-baik tempat untuknya.
有些时候，
能不能
不由你说能，
也不由你说不能。
有些时候，
行不行
不由你说行，
也不由你说不行。
很多时候，
肯不肯定
当中
你是夹在
中间的。
一脚肯
另一脚却不肯。
还好你有一双脚，
让你同时踩得起
两边。
天都快亮了，
可是所有的
理想还没完成。
天都快亮了，
可是所有的
理想无法完成。
只好继续加油，
与时间做战，
与宁静的夜晚
陶醉在这个空间里。
等待明天会
比今天来的顺一点吧。
等待明天会
比今天更好一些些吧。
时间没有脚
却能一下子
不知道跑到
何处，
而我虽然有
一双脚，
却无法超越
时间的速度。
不是我慢，
而是时间啊，
它无法停顿，
一直都在跑。
而我嘛，
跑累了会停，
停了又再跑。
时间它陆续
地在跑，
我只能陪陪
一下然后也
追不上它了。
唯能看着它，
也守不住它。
因为时间它，
不属于我的，
应该也不是
任何人的吧。
in order not to forget,
you will have to remember,
in order not to be forgotten,
you will have to make them remember.
in order to forgive,
you will have to forget,
in order to be forgiven,
you will have to make them forget.
in order to receive,
you will have to give,
in order to be received,
you will have to learn how to be received.
it doesn’t work one way,
it takes two to accomplish one.
it doesn’t have to be that way,
but it’s just the way it is…
一个人怎么那么会累？
一个人怎么那么想睡？
一个人怎么那么陶醉？
一个人怎么那么憔悴？
一个人怎么那么无味？
一个人怎么那么无聊？
哎呀，一个人怎么可以那么啰嗦嘛。。。
right, done with reading the novel called ‘SLAM’ by Nick Hornby not long ago. promise my sis that i will post this novel to her. and erm just realized that i haven’t update this one blog of mine for quite some time. so, this will not take me long as i’m just gonna type out those lines from the novel that kinda hooked me. the storyline? nah, am not gonna tell you that, go and grab it somewhere and you can read all you want eh.
*i wanted to dump her, and she wanted to dump me, so we avoided each other. that way, we stayed undumped.
*the whole point of friends is that you choose them yourself.
*‘listen. you’re gorgeous. but the trouble is, you know it, and you can treat people like dirt because of it. well, i’m sorry, but i’m really not that desperate.’
*you know how you’re not supposed to make faces because the wind might change and you stay like that?well, i wondered whether the wind might have changed, and she’d be sulky and cocky for ever.
*sometimes you know you’ve got a chance with a girl because she wants to fight with you. if the world wasn’t so messed up, it wouldn’t be like that. if the world was normal, a girl being nice to you would be a good sign, but in the real world, it isn’t.
*sometimes it does’t matter who you talk to, as long as you talk.
*i’d spent so much time thinking about her that i no longer had a clear picture of her in my mind.
*(definitely avoid going out with ugly girls who say they want to be models. not because they’re ugly, but because they’re mad.)
*if you look at it another way, though, everyone is like that. i mean, you sleep with someone because you’re not sick of them, and when you’re sick of them, you stop.
*…waiting for a bus was much easier than anything else, because it was all just waiting anyway. when i was waiting for a bus, i didn’t have to do anything else but wait, but all the other waiting was hard. eating breakfast was waiting, so i didn’t eat much. sleep was waiting, so i couldn’t sleep much, even though i wanted to, because sleeping was a good way of getting through eight hours or whatever. school was waiting, so i didn’t know what anyone was talking about, during the lessons or at break times. watching tv was waiting, so i couldn’t follow the programmes.
*…if someone tells you she loves you, then you’re bound to say it back, aren’t you? you have to be pretty hard not to.
*life would be easier if i didn’t give a shit, but i do.
*all i can say is that, believe it or not, sex is like anything else good: once you have it, you stop being quite bothered about it. it’s there, and it’s great and everything, but it doesn’t mean you’re happy to let everything else go out of the window.
*i knew i was being a coward, but sometimes you have to be a coward, don’t you? there’s no point in being brave if you’re just going to get destroyed.
*can you imagine that? embarrassment stopping you from sleeping? i was blushing. there was literally too much blood in my face for me to close my eyes.
*it’s just that there comes a point where you know everything, you know nothing, because you don’t know what anything felt like. that’s the thing about stories, isn’t it? you can tell someone the facts in ten seconds, if you want to, but the facts are nothing.
*i’d never really had arguments like this before, arguments where both sides were right and wrong all at the same time.
*you should never drag stuff out of a nice conversation and chuck it back in the middle of a nasty one. instead of one good memory, you’re left with two shitty ones.
*i was home, and i wanted to be home. but home was somewhere else now too, and i couldn’t be in both of the places at once.
*…we lived in two separate worlds that are not uniting.
*i hate time. it never does what you want it to.
*age isn’t like a fixed thing. you can tell yourself that you’re seventeen or fifteen or whatever, and that might be true, according to your birth certificate. but birth certificate truth is only a part of it. you slide around, in my experience. you can be seventeen and fifteen and nine and a hundred all on the same day.
-extracted from SLAM by Nick Hornby-
alright, just finished watching `LOVE OF SIAM` (RAK HANG SIAM)… yeah, been wanting to watch this movie since it`s out i guess, but it will definitely not be shown in Malaysia and no way it can enter the Malaysian cinema… with all those censorship thingy. don`t ask me why as i don`t wanna be the spoiler. go and watch it and you know why. attracted to the theme song of this movie at first which i then checked it out from youtube. turned out it was from a movie. read the synopsis and read some comments posted by those who had actually watched it. some said it has the `gay` element, and so it has… but so what`s the big deal, you probably can`t even tell if you are `gay` yourself or not. anyway, it was not the only element being portrayed in this movie. it`s just something that is not easy to be described, `what am i?`… TONG asked YING. that phrase actually made me wonder for a while… so what are you? how do you answer that for yourself? any idea? and here`s a line MEW said to TONG, "If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to handle it the one day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know about separation well. Is it possible TONG, that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them? At the same time, I was also wondering. Is it possible that, we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all? That`s my loneliness…." take a listen at the theme song and take a look at the lyric, simply meaningful. soothing tune to be exact.
http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=c5yVUhYGrgQ (mew`s version) http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnVJeW6T6XY&feature=related (originally sang by FLURE)
＜消えてゆく日本の俗語＊流行語辞典＞
＊アイ・アム・ソーリー・ひげそーり＝謝罪の言葉。だが、謝罪の意は極めて希薄。類：ごめんちゃい、ごめんくさい、すいまそん。
＊相思草＝タバコのこと。
＊愛とは決して後悔しないこと
＊アウト・オブ・眼中＝全く関心がないこと。
＊赤信号、みんなでわたれば怖くない
＊アカハラ＝（アカデミックハラスメント）の略。
＊あくせく＝仕事などに一所懸命で、ほかのことに気をまわす余裕がない様子。
＊あたボウよ＝あたり前じゃないか。きまってることさ。例：「兄きぃ、一気に片づけますか」「あたボウよ」。
＊頭が天竺（てんじく）＝いつも夢のようなことばかりをいっている状態（人）。若者語。
＊頭がピーマン＝頭の中身がない人。空っぽの状態。
＊頭の黒いねずみ＝家の中のものを盗む者のこと。
＊アツはナツイねー＝「夏は暑いね」を言い換えただけ。聞き手はそのまま流すのが常。
＊アニタク＝アニメおたくのこと。
＊アフターカーニバル＝あとの祭り。つまりは、手遅れ。
＊油を売る＝仕事をさぼって無駄話や遊びをすること。例：「またどこかで油を売っていたな」。
＊アンビリ＝「アンビリーバブル」の略。
＊一生のお願い＝日本語としては疑問だが、「一生に一度のお願い」の略。これを一生に一度しか言わない、という人はいない。
＊一般ピープル＝庶民。普通の人々。
＊意味深＝「意味深長」の略。
＊魚覗き（うおのぞき）＝水族館。
＊うれピー＝「うれしい」をおどけてかわいこぶった言い方。
＊おしゃれスポット＝よい雰囲気のショップやレストラン。またはそれらが集まったエリア。
＊おはこんばんちは＝「おはよう」「こんにちは」「こんばんは」の合成語。
＊かえすがえすも残念＝何度考えてもいくら考えてもほんとうに残念。
＊風の便りに聞く＝どこからともなく伝わってきた噂で知る。が、ほとんどの場合、情報源は確定されている。
＊カラスの勝手でしょ＝六九から始まったテレビ番組「8時だよ！全員集合」の合唱団のコーナーで志村けんが歌った替え歌「カラス、なぜ鳴くの。カラスの勝手でしょ」から。八〇年に流行。私の勝手でしょ、と言うときにこう言い換えた。
＊カルシウム不足＝カルシウムが不足すると骨が弱くなるといわれた。さらに、キレやすくなるとまでいい加減に解説されるようになった。例：「あいつ最近すぐイライラして、カルシウム不足じゃないか？」
＊感謝感激＝あとは「雨あられ」と続くのが正式。ものすごく嬉しい気持ちをやや軽く表したいときに言うおおげさな言葉。例：「君を店長に指名したいのだが」「は、はい。感謝感激雨あられです。」
＊記憶にござません
＊危険が危ない＝ただただ危ないこと。若者語。
＊喜色満面＝喜びが顔中に広がっているように見える顔つき。喜び方。
＊北が無いなら日本は三角＝「汚いなあ」と言われたとき言い返す言葉。
＊帰宅部＝クラブやサークルに入らず、終業後、すぐ帰宅する中高生。
＊きまり悪い＝居づらい。はずかしい。例：「結婚式に昔のカノジョが来るんだ」「そりゃ、きまり悪いね」
＊今日、耳日曜＝相手のいうことを聞きたくないときにいう。
＊口あそび＝むだ口。ジョーク。
＊食っちゃ寝＝食べると寝るの繰り返しで、仕事や勉強をちっともしない様子。
＊公然の秘密
＊ジャムってる＝生理中である。
＊書林＝多くの書物。または、書店。
＊頭痛が痛い＝「頭痛がする」と「頭が痛い」の合成語。言葉を重ねることで痛さを強調する。例：「頭が頭痛で危険が危ないよ」「そりゃ、頭が危ない」
dear god,
i don`t need more,
i don`t need many of them,
i just need few…
erm, wait a minute,
well, one or two should be enough.
i just don`t wanna cause you trouble,
so one or two of them should be more than enough,
and i know i shouldn`t have asked for more.
i should`ve just be grateful of what i have.
still god,
i`m here today because of them.
and erm, if it`s not for them,
i`ll probably not be able to climb up high…
they`ve been giving me strength,
strength that i couldn`t possibly find else where.
so god,
i owe each one of them,
and i will still be owing them for the rest of my life.
oh and god,
thanks for giving me such wonderful friends.
i`ll try my best to keep those friendships alive…
eventhough we`re apart,
i keep them closely to my heart and i think of them every now and
then.
